Well this is embarrassing. Haha! Hi loves. I am SO sorry! I cannot believe it's been six months since my last post! It truly was not my intention to redesign my site, emailing you all in the process, only to completely disappear. I have no other excuse other than I've been exhausted. Uninspired. Spent.
For those of you who have followed closely enough, you know that my life has undergone a few evolutions over the past three years and while the first three months of 2021 brought a sprinkle of stability, the following six months brought heaps of dazed and confused, haha! Since the fall of 2019, I've been navigating between explosions of inspiration to the birth of new endeavors to deep exhaustion and burn out. And if that wasn't frustrating enough, I watched my "full steam ahead" excitement at the launch of these endeavors morph into indifference, which I have to say, is VERY new to me. As most of you know, I'm a pretty white-hot and passionate kind of gal so when I encounter indifference, it's a bit alarming. Confusing. And discouraging.
I know that sometimes you have to throw all the cakes in the oven to see which one rises but DAMN! This year just seems to be a never-ending series of unexpected U-turns and it's required me to just stop. And rest. After 2018, I really didn't think it was probable to find myself in new territory... surrendering deeper. Yet again. So soon.
But here.
I am.
Craving different things. Working different causes. Honing different skills. Having visions so foreign, so mammoth, they're practically inconceivable. (Notice I used the word practically.) Truthfully, I can barely hold onto them. Sometimes I wonder if they're even real. If they're intended for me to try on and carry. If they're too big of a task, a miracle, for the Universe to handle. And then I reflect upon the past few years... I think she's got it. It's just me that needs a recharge, haha!
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